I will be graduating in a matter of weeks. I'm both excited and terrified. It's time for a new chapter of my life, and I find myself wondering what lies ahead. Jobs, finding my own place; all terrifying.
At least one thing will remain constant, no matter what. And that would be the SCA, my rock and small joy. I'm slowly starting to get a kit together so I can start up combat archery; an awesome friend of mine just gave me a set of demi-gauntlets last night (btw, THANK YOU again Ragna!), so I officially have....two pieces. Hmm. I have a lot yet to get, but eventually I'll get it. I'm still working on embroidery and illumination when I get the chance, and my sewing pile is getting larger instead of smaller. Sadly, a lot of my sewing will have to wait till after graduation; since that's a wee bit more important than trying to finish my new doublet (which is still a blueprint)
In the mildly depressing part of the news, my boy friend and I have decided to take a break from dating. It was mainly my idea: I'm stressed out beyond all comprehension for various reasons (stay tuned for that rant, it's coming up next) and felt that I needed time to get my head on straight again.
And now for the not so happy part of this blog:
For anyone who cares to know the truth, I am not a "male-attention seeking whore" and (news flash) I despise drama so why on Earth would I create drama to "just be the center of attention". In case it has escaped your notice, I actually am quite a loner by nature and don't need a lot of social interaction in order to survive. I have my close friends and family and that's all I need. So, who ever is saying this crap, I ask you to please stop. I really don't need the stress that your stupid rumors are causing; school and my adult life cause enough of that. K thanks bye.
Sorry, had to get that out. If you haven't guessed already, I've recently discovered that apparently "people" can't wait for me to graduate so I'll take all the drama away. Also, apparently I've caused "rifts" in the club that we're all in and I'm apparently a whore who just wants male attention and apparently I create drama just so I can be the center of attention. Now, anyone who knows me knows that I despise drama more then politics (which is saying something), 90% of the above makes no sense what so ever. Plus, if anything, in regards to the rift thing, I've tried to keep drama OUT of the club. Granted, I've failed on a few occasions, but hey I'm only human.
As for being a "male attention seeking whore,"come on people really? Seriously? Again, anyone who truly knows me knows that I'm a loner by nature. So, if I'm a loner, how the hell does that make me an attention seeker of any kind? I don't need much social interaction to survive, unlike the majority of society; I'm perfectly content being alone, without male or female company, for extended periods of time. After which, I will emerge and get my dose of social interaction and repeat the process.
And as for people "not waiting till I graduate and leave": I hate to break it to whoever is saying that, but I'm not leaving after graduation. Considering I only live about an hour away, I'll be appearing back here on campus to help out with things and attend practices when I can. I have no idea who is saying this one, but I wish I did.
Apparently my morals are also in question lately, which also makes me more then a little torked. Anyone who cares to question them is more then welcome to question them to my face, instead of questioning them behind my back and spreading false truths.
There are more rumors I could rant about, but I am finding it hard to. Rumors drive me insane; they are pointless, retarded and childish. People who spread rumors seriously need to question their own maturity. I thought we were all adults here on campus and that we had all gotten out of middle school some time ago? Apparently not. So, the last thing I will say on the matter is: If you have a problem with me, my choices, or anything about me in general, how about coming and telling me in person? And for those who just assume that the rumors are true, how about coming to me and asking me for the truth, hmm? Wouldn't that be nice?
I promise I'm done ranting now... for now. If I've offended anyone, I'm sorry. But I needed to get this out before I quite literally went insane. Till next time: Ta.